No horns!

My pregnancy blogging was short lived.  I was too frazzled once she was born to even write a sensical post on facebook, let alone a blog entry.
I am having such issues with breastfeeding, it's insane.  Right now I am exclusively pumping.  She breast feeds for fun and sleep but not for food.  We have gone to lactation consultants, talked to la leche, every person I know who has ever breastfed.  It's been a disaster.  I just ran out of frozen milk and have  had to supplement with a few ounces of formula for the past two days, it's hurting my soul.
I'm pumping as I write this.  I pump a lot.  I was pumping every two hours with on ly a 5 hour break at night, but I got lucky in the sleep department and get a 10-12 hour break at night.  I'm sure if I woke up after 5 hours to pump I wouldn't have a deficiency in my supply, but I can't bring myself to do that anymore.  I need sleep.  I think the sleep depravation in the beginning was the worst part.  I felt like I was dying.  She won't sleep during the day unless someone is holding her.  Which is fine, but she was doing the same at night when she was a newborn. That was horrid.